Backs up against the wall prepared for an uphill battle, or at the very least a ready argument we turn anxiously to look for just who is in our corner. Even for the smallest of tasks we seem so ready to face everything on our own and only when we see the overwhelming odds do we recognize the depth of our need. Like a boxer, we stand bruised and bloodied with eyes nearly swollen shut before we fall on our knees .And yet, the fact of the matter is that it never has to be this way.
First a little observation about corners. As a friend of mine recently noted, corners are not the neatest, most brightly lit or cared for of places. That is where we keep the things we choose to hide or cannot deal with in the light of day that simply form the cobwebs of our lives. It is where we relegate the things that we hold onto, just in case we might find them of use one day. Now while it is true that God is needed to shine light on all of the hurt, guilt, and sin that lies here his love is never meant to only exist in this confined space. For if we let him, he longs for us to lay our heart and lives wide open for him to walk and guide our every movement.
So then why are we content to relegate God to the corner, asking only for his help when we feel we need him most? Quite personally, it has been for me when I have suffered most from a misplaced trust in my own abilities or those of others. Forging ahead without consultation or consideration of his advice, I set off assuredly on a course that most certainly was doomed from the start. “Where did it all go wrong?”, I ask myself knowing the answer even before I ask the question. It isn’t even a new story either. For time and time in the scriptures, God is asking us to include him in the planning, to wait to act. And yet time seems to stand still, and the uncomfortableness of the silence and the restlessness in the waiting tempt us to action. What I do not see, however, is the interplay of God at work in the hearts and lives of others seeking to bring us all to be a part of his master plan. While God can most certainly accomplish it all without me, he longs to have my trust and participation in the effort.
Well, if the corner isn’t the sole rightful place of God in our lives, just where should our Advocate and Comforter, Counselor and Deliverer be? Truth is at times God is more than willing to take the lead, to walk beside us, and albeit carry us when we think we cannot go any further. All he asks is that he be first in our lives. The first consultation, the first consideration, the door that we first approach and move through in our day.Yet, how do we invite God to occupy that space in our lives if we have only turned to the coach’s corner in times of crisis?
- Pray- talk, surrender your concerns and difficulties but also be willing to share your joys and blessings. It is all important to our loving Father.If we ever want to move God from the remote corners we have to give our all the good and the bad and include him in the decision making.
- Reconciliation- In considering what remains in our corners, now is a good time to “clean house”, maybe even do a little construction and eliminate the corners all together. Add some light to the darkest areas of our life by throwing open the shutters through confession and allowing God’s love to penetrate our hearts.
- Discernment- When a big decision seems to suddenly erupt on the scene..chances are that there were several smaller issues that were went unnoticed or that led to this crossroad. Take time to allow God to lead. Discernment may appear at first glance to be inaction when really it is the most important part of any action that we take in our Christian lives.
My hope for you today is to recognize the friendship that our loving Savior is calling you to- not just a hiding place but a constant light, shield and hope of our life to come. Not for a moment does he ever forsake us. Isn’t it only rightful that we honor his choice to be with us always?
3 thoughts on “In My Corner”
The cobweb image struck a responsive chord. Good thoughts about priorities. Acting on the good thoughts: that, as you point out, takes doing. Thank you for writing and posting this.
Thank you, Elizabeth. I recently read a book by Vinnie Flynn called “The Seven Secrets of Confession”. You might like it. I kept thinking of the healing power of confession when I read your piece. I also thought of that painting where Jesus is standing, in the dark, by a front door, with a lantern in his hand, knocking on the door. There is no handle on the outside. The painter said that he didn’t paint a handle because it can only be opened from the inside. Jesus is there always ready to welcome us back. We have to open the door for His light to enter.
Thank you. Love to the family.
Oh yes, I am familiar with that book!! You know, coming into the Catholic faith I initially thought then I might have had the most difficulty with confession. Yet, from the very beginning I have seen its beauty shine both in my life and all those who make it a priority in their faith life. Saints like St JP II even went daily!